PRONOUNCED DEAD

মৃত ঘষিত 

জনসমুদ্রের ভিরের মধ্যে খেকে হয়ে ওঠা একজন,
আবার নিমেষে মিলিয়ে যাওয়া অক্লান্ত ঢেউ এর মাঝে,
এই তো যেন দৈনন্দিন জীবন,
জীবন,তোমাকে জানাই অভিবাদন।

থেকে যায়ে কিছু সাদা ফ্যানার এক মুঠো ছবি,
সেসব আজ জীবিত না মৃত জানিনা কেউই,
জীবন, সে তো আজ জীবিত হয়েও মৃত,
মৃত্যূ যেন মৃত হয়েও কত জীবন্ত।        

REFLECTIONS ON THE YEAR THAT SMIRKED AND PASSED BY

The long laborious days have seen, 

The usual bright Sun losing its sheen.

Dark clouds bring much agony and mayhem,

The mind and body respond almost the same.

There is nothing much to offer except the mundane regular monotony of life,

Battles,won and lost along with those being fought,continue launching deep-rooted mental strife.

Milton's paradise have long been lost in such arduous fights,

The future marred by darkness fails to promise the presence of innumerable well lit lights.

That Man is a social animal,is an old saying,

Today,everywhere it is only an animal with all the monstrous blood baying.

The struggles and fights crown winners,admonishes the losers,

History chooses to remember the champions,conveniently forgetting the runners.

Whether I shall be remembered is the result of tests imposed by troubled times,

But whither shall I be is perhaps a question of a few dollars and dimes.  

    

TWO AND A HALF YEARS LATER

It has been almost two and a half years that I visited my own blog site.I am ashamed on one hand since I feel that I should have posted something or the other in these years. I do not know what stopped me really. Maybe I was a bit taken up by the events and activities but I will be honest that if I wanted I could squeeze out time from the hectic at times erratic schedules that I had to adapt to. Somewhere down the line there was an absence of desire on my part for staying away from the site. A lack of wish, desire and hunger to make good use of this platform resulted in my staying away. Perhaps it was good, perhaps bad. Frankly speaking I do not know the answer but what I can really promise is that I am enjoying writing again. So how do I begin? This question needs to be resolved first and foremost. But I have to get up and plug in the charger, so need to hold on to the thought for a minute. Ya, the technical domain is now clear and the hindrance to the progression of thought taken care of hereby support me in churning out words and expressions that may resonate with elite associations in education and culture. Coming back to the train of thoughts after this short tour into a digressive mode I must confess that the world around me has changed in these two and half years significantly. All these changes have influenced me and my thoughts, though I am unaware of the effects of these changes - positive or negative or none of these. I think it is better not to always judge such events, they are uncalled for at times. There is a beauty in chaos which few can aesthetically appreciate, let it be like that in this case. I am not bothered to make things right. This reverberates the hint of everything not being fine. Yes according to set norms my life is not right now in the perfect shape like a sculpture by Il Divino but it is not too bad either in economic terms. I am getting a monthly allowance of a few thousand rupees, got all the advantageous conditions that enable me to either construct a "good life" ahead or an "utterly miserable state of being", good books to read, quality films to watch rarely though, tasteful food to gorge on, suitable clothes in this winter, shoes and hats as well! So I should not complain. I am not. But there is a world bigger and outside this realm of existence. That I shall term to be the imaginary homeland. Its the ideal world of my creation, removed far away from the madding crowd. I have been devoid of any satisfaction there. It has been struck by dark times. Should I divulge more? Well that will be in an allegorical way I suppose if I wish to. Coming soon. Get ready!!

INTO THE DARKNESS OF NIGHT

THE RIVER IN MY HEART IS RUNNING DRY,

DROPS WITH YOUR NAME ON THEM LIE SCATTERED ON THE SAND,

I WAIT FOR THE DAY TO END FOR THE NIGHT TO FALL,


SO THAT I MAY OPEN THOSE HALF DREAMING DOORWAYS...

LET THE DIM FLICKER LIGHT UP ALL THE NOOKS AND CRANNIES,

WITH STRANGE VOICES,THAT CAST THIR SHADOWS ON THE DAMP WALLS,

MY RAPID BREATHS ARE LIKE THE THROES OF DEATH.


I TOO SHALL RUN AFTER THE DARK AWAKE WITH CLOSED EYES.

DISAPPOINTMENTS

ITS PRETTY DISGUSTING TO MISS THE BLOG FOR SO MANY DAYS...AARGHHH!!!A HUGE PILE OF WORK SURROUNDED ME FOR THE LAST FEW DAYS...OR IS IT WEEKS??PUTTING THE FINAL TOUCHES ON THE PREPARATION FOR THE B.A PART 3 EXAMINATIONS TOOK A LOT OF TIME,LABOUR,ENERGY AND CONCENTRATION.SO MUCH SO,THAT I HAD TO WORK ALMOST 24-HOURS A DAY...RESTED AND SLEPT VERY LITTLE,THE BIOLOGICAL CLOCK GOT INVERTED IN NO TIME...IN THE MEAN TIME THERE HAVE BEEN CRIES ABOUT DANTEWADA,IPL,ETC...WELL,I THINK THE CONTROVERSIES REGARDING IPL IS NOT A VERY IMPORTANT NEWS AFTER-ALL.WHERE THERE IS GLAMOUR AND GLITZ,THERE HAVE TO BE SOME UNANSWERED QUESTIONS,UNKNOWN COVERED WILD FACTS.MR.LALIT MODI,COMMISSIONER OF IPL,MR.SHASHI THAROOR-MINISTER OF EXTERNAL AFFAIRS (STATE),MR.NARENDRA MODI-CHIEF MINISTER OF GUJARAT HAVE BEEN DRAGGED TO THE CONTROVERSY.ALSO SHARING THE LIMELIGHT ARE,THE UNKNOWN,UNNAMED SHAREHOLDERS OF THE NEW KOCHI TEAM AND A LADY WHO IS REPORTEDLY A "FRIEND" OR MAYBE "GIRL-FRIEND " OF MR.SHASHI THAROOR.THE WHOLE EVENT CAN BE NEGLECTED AS IT HAS ONLY LED TO GARNERING OF MORE INEREST,HYPE AND HOOPLA FOR THE ONGOING IPL-3 AND THE YET TO COME IPL-4.
THE ATTACK ON ALPHA-BATTALION OF CRPF JAWANS BY THE NAXALITES OR MAOISTS GENERATED MIXED EMOTIONS...PERSONALLY,I DONT CONDEMN THE ATTACK.THE IRRESPONSIBLE STATE MACHINERY ACTUALLY LED TO SUCH AN ATTACK WHERE REPORTEDLY 76 JAWANS DIED.MR.CHIDAMBARAM PUBLICLY PROCLAIMED HIS AIM OF ERASING THE MAOISTS FROM INDIAN SOIL,AND WITHIN THE NEXT 72-96 HOURS HE WAS READY TO OFFER RESIGNATION THEREBY TAKING FULL RESPONSIBILITY OF THE ATTACK.I GUESS HE DID THE PERFECT THING,AS HE AND ONLY HE WAS RESPONSIBLE FOR ORDERING THE OPERATION GREENHUNT.HE AND HIS COLLEAGUES MUST REMEMBER THAT THEY ARE BASICALLY WORKING FOR THE SELECT 20-25% EDUCATED-ELITE CLASS,CREME-DE-LA-CREME.BY THIS THEY ARE PURPOSELY NEGLECTING THE 75%MARGINALISED POPULATION WHO ARE INDEED IN A DEPLORABLE STATE.THEY DONT GET THE BASIC RIGHTS AND AMENITIES OF LIFE.EVEN AFTER 60 YEARS OF INDEPENDENCE,THEY ARE UNDER THE RAJ.....THE APPARENT PARLIAMENTARY-DEMOCRACY RAJ.THE GOVERNMENT DOES LITTLE TO ADDRESS THEIR CAUSE EXCEPT SENDING MR.RAHUL GANDHI FOR DINNERS IN POOR SHELTERS WITH THE MEDIA FOLLOWING HIM FOR SOME LIVE BYTES...THE PARLIAMENTARIANS MUST REALISE THAT THEY ARE DIGGING THEIR OWN GRAVES BY NEGLECTING THIS HUGE POPULATION,BY KEEPING THEM IN THE DARK AND ALLOWING THEM TO ROT.THE MAOISTS ATLEAST WORK FOR THEIR BETTERMENT ENSURING TUBEWELLS,WELLS,HEALTH CLINICS,ETC WHILE THE B.D.Os AND S.D.Os CONTINUE TO YWAN AT THEIR OFFICES AND BLURT "WHAT CAN WE DO?THE FUNDS ALLOCATED FOR RURAL DEVELOPMENT DON'T EVEN REACH US."ITS HIGH TIME FOR THE KEEPERS OF SO CALLED DEMOCRACY TO ACT A BIT DEMOCRATICALLY-BE IT THE RIGHTS OR THE LEFTS.THE FINAL NAIL THAT WAS PUT INTO THE COFFIN WAS THE ARMY GENERAL'S STATEMENT,THAT THE WHOLE MAOIST THING IS A SOCIO-ECONOMIC PROBLEM WHICH THE ARMY IS NOT READY TO FIGHT.
A TRIVIAL MARRIAGE OVERNIGHT TURNED INTO A DAILY SOAP,THANKS TO THE MEDIA'S ACTIVENESS IN EXHIBITING ITS BANKRUPTCY OF ISSUES.I REALLY HAVE TO IGNORE IT...
ALL THE BEST,BEST WISHES...

STEPHEN'S HOUSE IN FLAMES

STEPHEN'S BUILDING THAT HOUSES THE LEGENDARY FLURYS AND MUSIC WORLD AT PARK STREET IS IN FLAMES....REPORTEDLY A HUGE DESTRUCTIVE FIRE HAS BROKEN OUT THAT HAS RESULTED IN SEVERE LOSSES.I'M BEING TOLD THAT THERE HAVE BEEN CASUALTIES AND MANY PEOPLE ARE INJURED.ITS HORRIFIC!!!I REMEMBER WALKING DOWN PARK STREET ON 25th DECEMBER 2009 WITH SAYAN SAHA,SRIJAN BANARJEE SAGNIK DATTA AND SUMANTRASARATHI DUTTA.THEY ARE MY FRIENDS OF SCHOOL.MANY PEOPLE WERE THERE AT THAT TIME CELEBRATING CHRISTMAS DAY WITH THEIR FRIENDS,FAMILY-FOLKS.EVERYBODY WERE IN A JOVIAL MOOD.I REMEMBER SAGNIK SAYING,"FLURYS E CAKE KHABO."SAYAN RETORTED,"ONEK EXPENSIVE,EKHANE NA." SAGNIK REMAINED DEFIANT AS HE BOLDLY ASSERTED,"NA,AJ EKHANEI CAKE KHABO." SAYAN CAME OUT WITH A BRILLIANT ONE-LINER,"ARRE,KEU EKE BOJHA JE EKHANE BAPUJI CAKE PAWA JAYNA."WE ALL BURST INTO HEARTFULL LAUGHTER AS PEPLE TURNED THEIR FACES AT DIFFERENT ANGLES AND DEGREES TO STARE AT US.....
THESE ARE NOSTAGIC MEMORIES...I SINCERELEY HOPE THAT NORMALCY IS RESTORED.THE UNTIMELY DEATHS MUST BE SHOCKING AND PAINFULL FOR RESPECTIVE FAMILIES,WE SHALL TRY OUR BEST TO SUPPORT THEM.I KNOW AT SUCH TIMES THESE WORDS DON'T MATTER AS SUCH,STILL IT IS BETTER TO ASSURE THE GRIEVING FAMILIES THAT THEY ARE NOT ALONE ENTIRE KOLKATA STANDS BY THEM.WE MUST DRAW THE LESSONS FROM SUCH A TRAGEDY THAT RESULTS IN LIFE-LOSS,THE INVESTIGATIONS MUST BE PROPERLY CARRIED OUT AND IF ANYONE IS FOUND GUILTY BY THE LAW,SUITABLE PUNISHMENT SHOULD BE AWARDED.
PERHAPS TONIGHT I WON'T SLEEP WELL.STILL,WISH YOU ALL GOODNIGHT WITH A HEAVY HEART..BEST WISHES...

APPRECIATION

HELLO,I'M FEELING GOOD AFTER RECEIVING MY FRIEND AKASH'S COMMENTS AND FEEDBACK ON A SHORT STORY ENTITLED "THE DAY-BREAK" THAT I HAD WRITTEN IN JANUARY,MY MAIDEN SHORT STORY.NOW AFTER AKAS'S GENEROUS COMMENTS I HAVE THE AUDACITY AND COURAGE OF SHOWING IT TO SOME SPECIALISTS IN THIS GENRE AND FORM OF ENGLISH LITERATURE.LET US HOPE FOR THE BEST.....BEST WISHES.

GOOD AFTERNOON,
HAD BEEN A BIT BUSY YESTERDAY AND THEREFORE COULDN'T DEVOTE ANY TIME TO THE UPDATING OF THE BLOG.ACTUALLY WITH THE FINAL EXAMS NEXT MONTH AND FOUR HONOURS PAPERS TO REVISE,IT LEAVES VERY LITTLE TIME FOR MYSELF.TODAY I'VE SUCCESSFULLY GOT A FACEBOOK PROFILE BADGE.IT WILL SHOW RIGHT ON THE BLOG PAGE.I'M LEARNING THE BASICS OF ALL THESE SOCIAL NETWORKING SITES.I'VE PROFILES IN ORKUT AND FACEBOOK.ORKUT I USE MORE FREQUENTLY THAN FACEBOOK.IN TO SAY THE TRUTH,I OPERATE THE FACEBOOK PROFILE PERHAPS ONCE IN FORTNIGHTS.BUT NOW I THINK I MUST CONCENTRATE ON THE FACEBOOK PROFILE AND MAKE IT LOOK GOOD,PRESENTABLE AND APPEALING.I'VE BEEN COMPOSING TWO POEMS LATELY.THEY ARE POLES APART,I'M NOT DIVULGING ANYMORE ON THEM NOW.I HOPE TO COMPLETE AND POST THEM WITHIN THE WEEKEND.I'M NOT AN AVID WRITER/POET.I WRITE RARELY.IN THE LAST TWO-THREE YEARS WROTE VERY FEW ARTICLES AND POEMS.I'M MORE AN ACTOR.I LOVE ACTING.I HAVE A HUGE LIKING FOR ALL THE DEPARTMENTS OF THEATRE,DRAMA AND FILM-MAKING.ITS TIME FOR ME TO GO NOW,JOHN OSBORNE'S "LOOK BACK IN ANGER" IS CALLING ME...BEST WISHES.

INTRODUCTION

20th March 2010
NAMASHKAR,ASSALAAM WALE KUM,SASTRIYAKAAL,HELLO EVERYBODY.....THIS IS MY FIRST POST.I DIDN'T HAVE THE FACILITIES REQUIRED TO PUT DOWN AND SHARE MY THOUGHTS ON A PUBLIC PLATFORM WHICH THIS BLOG IS.BY FACILITIES, I MEAN THE FACILITIES OF THE MEDIUM AND ALSO THE OPPORTUNITIES THAT IT OFFERS.HOWEVER THAT IS PAST...I'M STARTING THIS BLOG TODAY.HOPE TO REACH OUT TO AS MANY PEOPLE POSSIBLE...AND I MUST THANK AKASH FOR INFLUENCING ME TO START BLOGGING....BEST WISHES.....GOODNIGHT.

ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

I WOULD LIKE TO ACKNOWLEDGE INDEBTEDNESS TO MY FRIEND AKASH MITRA,WHO RELEASED THE BLOG-BUG TO BITE ME YESTERDAY NIGHT.IT WAS HIS IDEA THAT I PROMPTLY TOOK UP IN ORDER TO EXPRESS FEELINGS EMOTIONS AND OPINIONS ON VARIOUS SUBJECTS THAT SHOULD CONCERN HUMANITY.THEREFORE I START THIS BLOG INVOKING AND SEEKING AKASH'S BLESSINGS,JUST AS POETS DID SO OF THE DIVINE...
THERE ARE A LOT OF THOUGHTS THAT ARE CROWDED PRESENTLY IN MY MIND WHICH ARE JOSTLING TO FIND AN OUTLET.THESE ARE NOT JUST FLEETING THOUGHTS MEANT TO COME AND STRIKE MY MIND AND AFTER SOMETIME LEAVE...THESE ARE PERHAPS THE RESIDUE OF CERTAIN FLEETING THOUGHTS THAT CAME AT SOME POINTS OF LIFE.AT TIMES IT SEEMS STRANGE,I WONDER HOW THEY OPERATE...
THEY ARE BORN OUT OF THE WORLD THAT WE INHABIT.NUMEROUS EVENTS-KNOWN AND UNKNOWN,PRESENT AND PAST,TRIVIAL AND IMPORTANT ARE THE PROBABLE SOURCES FROM WHICH THOUGHTS EMANATE.WE TRY TO KEEP OURSELVES INFORMED OF IMPORTANT EVENTS.THE MASS MEDIA PROMOTE SUCH THOUGHTS IN CERTAIN WAYS,LIKE BY THROWING LIGHT ON ALL THESE EVENTS,THEREBY UNVEILING AND ILLUMINATING THE THOUGHTS,EMOTIONS,FEELINGS, PHILOSOPHIES AND OPINIONS ENCOMPASSING THESE EVENTS.WE ABSORB THESE DUG UP THOUGHTS AND THEN REACT TO THEM IN DIFFERENT WAYS.WE ALWAYS EXPRESS OUR REACTIONS...I THINK THIS IS HOW WE EXPRESS OUR THOUGHTS ON VARIOUS SUBJECTS,TOPICS AND ISSUES.THANK YOU AND BEST WISHES...GOOD NIGHT....